6 years ago some people told me, somewhat indirectly, that my guitar playing was dated and there was no place for my style in the format I was playing in. I think if they would’ve realized how hard I took that statement they might have never let the words come out. Maybe because I’m a girl, maybe because I’m an emotional, hormonal, irrational at times woman I took it so seriously I almost stopped playing altogether.
Why would a statement like that prompt me to want to give up? Do I really care what others think of my playing? Shouldn’t I have more than enough confidence after playing for 25 years to say who cares what decade I chose to play in, it’s not like I’m attempting to play Bach’s cello suite up there. Something in the style of 1723 would be seriously outdated wouldn’t it?
Well, I didn’t give up, but I kindly let my ‘style’ step aside and I went simple. It wasn’t until years later a precious friend of mine saw some of my old school facebook photos and asked ‘Wow, do you still play like that’ I said ‘no’. He said why not? And I said ‘I don’t know’. Then he told my to march downstairs to my Marshall stack turn it up to 10 and play my heart out. You know what I did? I marched down to my Marshall stack, cranked it up and played my heart out. You know what happened? I found out I didn’t really care what style I was playing. It was just me and my guitar and my own style and it felt just right.
Lately there has been a dream come true around every corner waiting to surprise me. Can you believe how much power there is in realizing someone believes in you? Praise God It’s given me the freedom to be myself and I’ve had the most extraordinary year. I released my second album, recorded it in Nashville TN. If it hadn’t been for that one night I may not have had the courage to step out and be myself. I may not have had the courage to enter the whooznxt Master Satriani contest.
Tomorrow morning I get to fly to Los Angeles, a car is going to pick me up and take me to a fancy hotel, then that car will take me to Guitar Center where I will pick up my brand new beautiful Ibanez JS20S and hang out with Joe Satriani. Ridiculously amazing. I’m going to take lots of photos just to make sure I’m not dreaming.